Allowing My Body To Heal

I’ve been planning on completing a Whole30 since my Celiac diagnosis last March. It was suggested by my nutritionist to see if there are other foods that don’t like me even though they taste so yummy. I’ve also had enough of being sick and tired. I know this won’t be a fix all, but if there is one thing I can pinpoint and say - you make me feel terrible, are you really worth eating? I’m good with it. A Whole30 basically consists of vegetables, most fruits, lean meats, and healthy fats. So, real food. 

I kept pushing my start date back mainly because my life is hectic and partly because of procrastination. An Asperger teen, a Type 1 Diabetic, who is graduating (a whole other post!), and life with Lupus and Celiac is enough normal I can handle. When our world turned upside down a few months back I really thought no way, I can’t do a Whole30 now. But honestly, would there ever be a good day to start. When January 1 came I decided it was time, I’m doing this. 

Day 10 is where I stand today. It’s hard. The food I have struggled with is cheese. I love cheese. I also love cupcakes, of course they need to be gluten free, but they’re not Whole30 compliant either. While cupcakes may be a favorite, dairy is my first love. There are many stories of food raids during my toddler years. I would often be found with a stick of butter or chunk of cheese. Luckily, I’ve overcome the urge to eat sticks of butter but cheese, well just thinking of it makes my mouth water. On day 6 when the kid’s pizza came out of the oven in all its bubbly, cheesy goodness, I lost my mind. I have no idea where this deep feeling of anger and jealousy came from and it was intense. Over cheese. 

Hopefully dairy will still love me when I reintroduce it. This is what is great about the Whole30 it’s not a diet. It’s a time to allow my body to heal. At the end of my Whole30 let’s hope there will be a cauliflower cheese pizza in my future. In the meantime I’m going to enjoy my chicken curry lettuce wraps and butternut squash with ghee. Ghee is my new love!