Seeking to remember.

It might seem there is no good to be found in the struggle and each day there is a new one. 

We wonder when will this end.

How do we get through this moment?

And when we finally see a glimpse of hope? Another door closes...relationships change...a new illness...a new challenge.

It's enough to make you want to scream I give up!

Moments seem dark while we're trying to grasp the hope of God's promises. 

I was asked by a good friend how my day was going. I answered "Can Jesus just come back now?" 

Maybe the Israelites felt the same way towards God during the 40 years in the desert.

Mana and quail...Again? Really God.

God's not here. He's taking to long. Let's cast our own idol. Something we can touch and see. 

I want to see answers now. I want to know it will all work out. I want to know I am following God's will. I want to hold on to hope.

I want to remember...I've been here before. Remember those years after my sister died, my own diagnosis, learning my children will face life long illnesses. I want to remember because no matter how difficult those moments were I survived....and....I survived stronger.

Stronger perseverence.

Stronger hope.

Stronger faith.

So, I have been here before. And I will open my eyes and look for the hope, just as David writes.

I am certain that I will see the Lord’s goodness in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and courageous. Wait for the Lord. Psalms 27:13-14 HCSB

Maybe His goodness is seen in the moment we find the physical strength to finish a task, our teens are laughing momentarily together, or maybe watching the rain from our beds while we are ill.

But we only see when we seek and remember.

Be strong.

Be courageous.

Open our eyes to the Lord's goodness.