Fears and What if?

I knew that being a mom would require me to partake in a few sleepless nights.  I was ecstatic when my children slept through the night on a regular basis. Unfortunately being a parent of a Type 1 Diabetic is reminiscent of those months of infant wake up calls. Usually now my wake up calls belong to an alarm clock every two-three hours a night, a few days a month.  I do this to make sure Sunny's blood sugar is staying level through the night and sometimes just to reassure myself everything Sunny ate was covered correctly; too low she may go into severe hypoglycemia or too high she develops hyperglycemia which leads to ketones. 
Ketones or Diabetic ketoacidosis is a serious complication of diabetes that occurs when your body produces very high levels of blood acids called ketones. Diabetic ketoacidosis develops when you don't have enough insulin in your body. Without enough insulin, your body begins to break down fat as an alternate fuel. This produces toxic acids in the bloodstream called ketones, which can lead to diabetic ketoacidosis if untreated. Diabetic ketoacidosis signs and symptoms often develop quickly. Here are the symptoms:
Excessive thirst and urination
Abdominal pain, nausea, and/or vomiting
Loss of appetite
Weakness or fatigue
Shortness of breath
Sweet scented breath
For many diabetics ketosis will lead to their diagnosis.  It is also something we deal with more than we would like. It often means long nights and days, a lot of vomit (there is a reason I never wanted to be a nurse), paging doctors at inconvenient times (we are very blessed to have doctors call in prescriptions or guide us through what to do), arguing with ER staff that your child does not have a gastrointestinal virus (they're always very polite after getting off the phone with her specialist) and trusting that when we give her an enormous amount of insulin she will survive (we did learn a new trick this past weekend - give her a piece of candy to keep her from going to low - maybe there is a reason we keep Dum Dums in the house). 
 All joking aside ketosis is extremely dangerous and can result in fatality.  As a mother that alone could keep me up at night.  The fear that what if I somehow made a mistake when I thought I had done everything correctly. I cannot live in fear of what if. Instead I  choose to live in faith. Faith that God will keep her safe, He will give me the wisdom and strength I need to be her mother, and she is mine because He trusts me with her and loves her more than I could ever imagine.