I think of the children we've lost through miscarriage often. But I never thought how it would affect the two children we were blessed to raise.
She was my fourth pregnancy and she was only 6 months old when we suffered our last miscarriage. Never knowing whether she has sisters or more brothers, if they'd look more like her brother or herself.
She loves them any way.
As we sit together and share tears of what could have been our family. She asked me can we name them. A question that showed me she didn't need to meet them to love them. That just like her dad and I there are empty places in her heart.
She is looking for a connection. Showing us how big her heart is.
Losing a pregnancy didn't only affect my husband or I. It affected our family. To think we’d be a family of nine. Today, we shed tears in rememberence for the five sweet babies our family holds in our hearts.
***October is Pregnancy and Infancy Loss Awareness.
***Pregnancy loss and complication is very common in Lupus. Patients are advised to not become pregnant unless their disease activity is under control.
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